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Blogger Tuula Vintage Announces She's Pregnant In Heartbreakingly Honest Post

Her Instagram account has 2.5 million followers.

If you're an Instagram fan, you've most likely experienced serious wanderlust over Tuula Vintage's page at some point. In her most honest post to date, she's announced that she's seven months pregnant, but it's been anything but easy.

Tuula, whose real name is Jessica Stein, has bared her soul in her pregnancy announcement that talks openly about the hardships she's faced during pregnancy so far.

"I've always dreamed of being a mother, but never knew if I could be. I experienced multiple pelvic and internal injuries after being hit by a car at 16 with ongoing pain and limitations, and was warned of what might never come to be," Stein explained.

Our little miracle... Seven months of wild waves with this man of my dreams keeping my head above water. I've always dreamed of being a mother, but never knew if I could be. I experienced multiple pelvic and internal injuries after being hit by a car at 16 with ongoing pain and limitations, and was warned of what might never come to be. I've always wanted to adopt (as my incredible mum was) and my partner and I had been talking about it again just before this unexpected miracle happened. With my personal history and high value of privacy I hope everyone can understand that I would not have shared this online if I didn't feel the need to talk about the highs and lows that so many experience with challenging pregnancies. I have been struggling with antenatal depression and hope that speaking out might just help heal myself, and someone else too. At our 20 week scan they noticed the lack of amniotic fluid that I had unknowingly been leaking due to my old bladder injury and was diagnosed with PPROM (broken waters). With pre-labour symptoms and anticipating a very, very early arrival I was admitted to hospital in Sydney on bed rest once viable at 24 weeks. I don't know the words to describe how hopeless I felt... not being able to control my own body, provide for my baby or see hope that we would make it through. Despite my partner being a rock of support and positivity, I have found these last few months to be some of the loneliest of my life. Just days ago we experienced our first true moment of excitement and relief that things will be okay; that we have a little warrior who is beating all of the odds. I have been allowed home for the first time since late last year and the cloud of anxiety is slowly lifting. Thank you to the doctors, midwives and hospitals who have gone above and beyond for us, including all of the women I met while sharing hospital rooms learning about each other's journeys. We are so grateful to have come this far and be in this position that so many can only dream to reach. We aren't in the complete clear but know that nothing ever really is. For now we are going to lay low and enjoy every extra week of waiting to meet our miracle...

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"I hope everyone can understand that I would not have shared this online if I didn't feel the need to talk about the highs and lows that so many experience with challenging pregnancies," she said honestly.

The social media influencer goes on to describe that she's been suffering with antenatal depression, hoping that speaking out might help both herself and others who are suffering.

Beyond Blue describes antenatal depression as a depression experienced during pregnancy that affects up to one in ten women in Australia. It's also known as prenatal depression.

"At our 20-week scan they noticed the lack of amniotic fluid that I had unknowingly been leaking due to my old bladder injury and was diagnosed with PPROM (broken waters)," Stein said.

"With pre-labour symptoms and anticipating a very, very early arrival I was admitted to hospital in Sydney on bed rest once viable at 24 weeks," she said.

Despite my partner being a rock of support and positivity, I have found these last few months to be some of the loneliest of my life.

Stein describes her feelings during this time, saying that she felt hopeless not being able to control her body, provide for her baby or see hope. It's heartbreaking.

"Despite my partner being a rock of support and positivity, I have found these last few months to be some of the loneliest of my life," Stein said.

Her post ends on a positive note, explaining to people that just days ago the soon-to-be parents experienced a moment when they realised that "that we have a little warrior who is beating all of the odds".

The Australian's honest approach is a compelling example of how using one's influence to bare your soul has the potential to speak out to so many people who may be suffering in silence.

Stein concludes by saying they aren't completely in the clear yet but her closing sentiment appears full of hope. The world is hoping for the best for her little family too.

If you need help in a crisis, call Lifeline on 13 11 14. For further information about depression contact beyondblue on 1300224636 or talk to your GP, local health professional or someone you trust.

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