I'm Not Ashamed Of Being A Part-Time Parent

It makes me a far more fit and fun mum.
The alternatives to 'part-time parenting' just aren't practical for my family.
The alternatives to 'part-time parenting' just aren't practical for my family.

I'm no longer ashamed to divulge that my son attends daycare during the week full-time, despite the fact that I only work part-time. And you know what else? I also refuse to feel guilty for hiring a nanny over half the weekend in a situation described by others as 'part-time parenting'.

"Sunny Day, sweepin' the clouds away, on my way to where the air is sweet." These upbeat lyrics from the Sesame Street theme song Sunny Day reflect my current feelings on what others may deem 'part-time parenting'. It did, however, take considerable trial and error to get me to this point. I have learned to reject the guilt laid at my door about not spending every waking moment with my toddler.

Only now can I utter the words "I am not a bad mum".

The alternatives to 'part-time parenting' just aren't practical for my family. I know this because when I tried the full-time 'round the clock gig, it ultimately led us to a crash course in "How to survive when shit goes horribly wrong".

For a time, our household was on a familial version of the Springfield Monorail. Dishes piled up, doona covers were lucky to be pulled up and I could be spotted at the supermarket in a sweatsuit complete with play-doh stuck in my hair. Finding an equilibrium while juggling multiple needs is a challenge all parents face. However now, despite some harsh judgments on our 'home-help' arrangements, our family is back on track.

Through the trials of full-time parenting, I became acutely aware of 'mummy guilt'; an emotional rollercoaster, rendering you a paralyzed, nervous wreck. Hyper-vigilance and helicopter parenting were two symptoms of mummy guilt that I identified in myself. I'm not a psychologist but I believe they stemmed from personal efforts to control external factors when everything else felt utterly hopeless. I have sadly come to realise that parental multi-tasking is not my strong point.

Most mums I have spoken to have experienced 'mummy guilt' to some degree. Some mums just appear to hold themselves together (externally at least) better than others. The truth is, at one stage or another, we all feel inadequate as parents. When it comes to raising our precious gifts, questioning our decisions is natural. Still, there's no need to beat ourselves up with could have, should have, would have. Like, could've been naturally awesome at this gig... but just wasn't.

My family's current arrangement is far preferable to us cleaning up the mass destruction left behind by an excitable toddler in tandem. Instead of wasting emotions on fruitless guilt, I embrace having the energy to brush my own hair, and I instead dedicate time to play (there is much singing and dancing with Master 3). I believe our current arrangement makes me a far more fit and fun mum.

I'm no longer frazzled around the clock, and can now engage my son on a deeper level than: "Please eat your breakfast and try not to spill it everywhere." My son now has a mum who does not lament the chores and looks forward to coming home for games and cuddles. I love to hear about his activities and how he is discovering the wide, wondrous world. He has a mummy who is excited for him to turn four so she can facilitate him joining sports and clubs and join in at karate or football. See you on the sidelines, ladies.

With new arrangements in place, our household has finally made the transition to "come and play, everything's A-okay". 'Part-time parents' make sacrifices, be they financial or otherwise. Home help has to be paid for somehow (perhaps by dipping into those hard-earned savings).

However, if, at the end of the day, you are not in tears of despair over everything that has gone wrong, the sacrifices can be worth it. The old clichés "happy mummy, happy baby" and "happy wife, happy life" exist for a reason. And, after experiencing the trials of post-natal depression, I can attest that sound mental health is seriously underrated.

Not everyone enjoys the routine of changing nappies, feeding, cleaning, bathing and beyond. Yep, bam, right there... I said it! I don't miss cabin fever either. Parents are diverse, so despite what the literature says (which I wouldn't know because I haven't actually read it), I don't believe a one-size-fits-all model of parenting works.

Some people will look down on me for articulating my home truths, but I refuse to let them get the better of me. If there are mums out there in similar predicaments, my advice is that no one knows your family like you do. Don't let the "you should" guilt get in the way of practical decision making. 'Part-time parenting' is not for everyone, but at my end, it's the key to happier, healthier living. I reject the mummy guilt and notions of what I SHOULD be doing, as opposed to what we NEED. After all, in our home it's now: "a magic carpet ride, every door will open wide, to happy people like you -- Happy people like... what a beautiful, sunny day"